Where are you?

"Ooh I need your love babe,
Guess you know it's true.
Hope you need my love babe,
Just like I need you,Ooo.

Hold me, love me, hold me, love me.
I ain't got nothin' but love babe,
Eight days a week.

Love you ev'ry day girl,
Always on my mind.
One thing I can say girl,
Love you all the time,ooh


Hold me, love me, hold me, love me.
I ain't got nothin' but love girl,
Eight days a week.

Eight days a week
I love you.
Eight days a week
Is not enough to show I care.

Ooh I need your love babe,
Guess you know it's true.
Hope you need my love babe,
Just like I need you.

Hold me, love me, hold me, love me.
I ain't got nothin' but love babe,
Eight days a week.

Eight days a week
I love you.
Eight days a week
Is not enough to show I care.

Love you ev'ry day girl,
Always on my mind.
One thing I can say girl,
Love you all the time.

Hold me, love me, hold me, love me.
I ain't got nothin' but love babe,
Eight days a week,
Eight days a week,
Eight days a week"


~THE BEATLES, EIGHT DAYS A WEEK


If there is a person out there who cares for me like this, please come out, coz I'm sick of waiting...

Happy Birthday

Happy birthday you.

It's been a full 3 years since I last celebrated your birthday, and now you're in the last year of the 20's.

I don't want to spoil your day by personally giving you a birthday wishes, so I will wish it for you here that  you will have a great year, full of joy and happiness, and that your family will also stay well and safe.

Happy Birthday, and I hope you actually are happy.

Girl Friends

You know, my closest friends back in NZ are mainly guys (don't be offended JJ, you still beat them all!!), I like their straight honesty and stupid sense of humor and their activeness.

But then since I've met Frenzi, I've re-learnt the meaning of girlfriends. There is something about girls that guys cannot satisfy, but then saying that, a girl who is wacky enough to do the crazy adventures and spontaneous decisions are pretty damn hard to find. I mean, how many people besides me prefer a bungalow over a clean well maintained resort?

It is true that we've only met each other 3 months a go, but it feels like we've known for a lot longer for sure. But having a girlfriend to go to shopping with (not to a blingy brands fancy stores, but markets), and picnic with, AND a night over trip with? I def hit the jackpot of the forum community.

At our last dinner on Sunday, she asked me

"Do you think you'll find someone again on the forum??"


Me: I dunno.

The chance of meeting someone like Frenzi seems so faint, and I'm not too sure if i have enough energy to go through that selection process again. I mean come on, how many people even back home do you meet that you want to do everything with???!!!!

I absoloutely wished that her contract will be extended again, but it didn't.  But then I'm happy for her that she's returning to her loved ones again.  I will miss you loads, and looking forward to seeing you again.

Chapter 1 of our story may have put a period on the end, but chapter 2 will begin very soon.  Gonna miss you Frenzi, and au revoir til we meet again..... xox

Late night blog.....

Sometimes I feel like blogging at the most unsuitable time.... like now!

It's already past 1am, and I should really be sleeping but I feel like writing.

About what is a good question.

For once I'm not in a mood to write about how depressing I am.

Maybe a little something about Daddy?? yeah, that sounds about right.  I'm in a bit of a girly mood.

Well, first of all, I like his smiles.... it's as if there is nothing wrong with life.  He always makes the best of the worst situation, and puts a smile on your face.

And also, I love the fact that he doesn't find anything I care for useless or stupid.  Sometimes I laugh at myself for caring for those things, but he tells me it's ok to keep it close to me.

You know that he cares for you and and it's always the greatest feeling to be loved.  Even if he is 4669.27km away from me, I feel like I'm snuggling when I'm talking to him on our weekly skype session.

Oh yeah, I forgot that you actually have a link to this blog.  If you are reading this, I just wanna tell you that you're the BESTEST FRIEND EVER!!!! And love you long time! xox

Love you lots Daddy!!

Its good to wake up in the morning (well almost afternoon for me today) and you know that you woke up from the right side of the bed.

Now in a way, having one of these morning in the weekend is bad coz I used to be in the situation when I was working at restaurant and was so stressed to the point that I only felt good in the weekend. It even got to the point that I even had less bags under my eyes in the weekend, and actually had natural smiles on my face. I will admit that I'm not the best person with handling stress, I get pissy at too many little things, rather than just letting it slide.

The last few days had been really hard on me again, just without any warning. But my lovely mentor friend Daddy-long-legs (or just Daddy to save the line) came to rescue at times like that. He never fails to put a smile on my face, and everything about him is just so so adorable. I wish he was here to hug as well and it would make things perfect! But I guess I shouldn't be too greedy. He already gives me everything that I need to get through in this country.

I was talking to lovely Yas last night. She was a colleague at the chocolate factory who was on a same boat as me. She didn't get her contract extended either and got terminated. Except she took this opportunity to go on the biggest OE of her life, travelling right across Europe.  She asked me

"How are you?? How is the life in Singapore??"

I told her the truth, about how much of a dream shambler it was. Then she said to me

"Get outa there, leave the county, go and explore!! Life is too short and youth is even shorter!"

I knew she was right, but I gave her all these excuses why I can't leave yet.  I made a deadline of another year and a half in Singapore. I think I can handle that length of time as long as I know that I won’t be here for rest of my life. But an idea did pop into my brain. I'll job hunt, I'll do it actively now, so if there is an opportunity, I can leave. Despite how much I like the ocean and traveling I can do around here, it doesn't worth it to stay.

Europe, you better watch out coz I'm all in for you!

Hold me tight

I don't need a man in my life, I've been telling myself that for the past few years. in fact, that statement is quite true most of the tine. It's easier to avoid things that may hurt me. I guess I'm afraid of falling in love again a bit.

But then on days like today, when everything in the world seems like crap, I wish I had someone to hold me and comfort me. Thing called skin-ship is a miraculous medicine. Just a friend hug is great too, but being in arms of a person and being showered with kisses, I miss all that.

I was over on the Pulau Bintan last weekend, and we stayed at a beautiful bungalow built over the water. Myself and Frenzi spent quite a bit of time on the patio also built over the water, talking about stars that was falling above us. It was a miraculous night and totally loved it. But at the same time, I wished that Jack was there, I know he would have loved to bachata under the stars, it was just so perfect for late night bachatas. I miss the way me and Jack used to dance together in late hours of the night. All we needed was a quiet music and silence to surround us. I was so satisfied back then. Me and Poet has been choreographing to "Stand by me" by Prince Royce for the competition coming up in Sept, but it's not the same. The song is same, and the love for bachata is still there, but that miracle connection and attraction for one another is not there. I miss having a person like that.....