Confused

Sometimes, I wish things were as clear as black and white.

I wish we didn't had to make decisions, or given decisions to make choices.

Sometimes I deliberately make mistakes knowing it's a mistake.

But I still keep on making false choices.

I thought I made my decision when I left NZ that I won't make the same mistake again. But yet, I make same mistake over and over.

I thought part of growing up is that you learn from your own mistakes.

But I guess I still choose to make mistakes to not teach myself.....