You know you want it, but you don't wanna show it.
Guys always want the things that are harder to get.
I tried to be a snob tonight, and waited for you to contact me instead of me trying to catch you for change. I just wanted to see that you weren't trying to avoid me or feeling awkward. And I got sad when I knew that you were online but didn't talk to me.
Until I got an email.
Turns out he was looking for me, but internet decided to hide me so he thought I was out.
I'm struggling to live only being able to talk 1 night a week. Although you send me an email almost every single morning.
I remember starting off like this when I was still in Jakarta. When the only time it suited us was Monday nights. And the unstable internet connection limiting our dates constantly.
Compared to back then, I can't complain about it. You send me messages constantly, and close enough to have a marvelous time when I visited. You care for me in the way that I want you to. But I'm still being greedy.
Will I be happy if I get what I want in the end?
I hope so, coz I don't want to be a bitch.
I'm a me monster. You already fill my life, but I want to fill your life too.
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