I wish I could just call you just coz I felt like it.
I always have to stop myself to tell myself that no, I am not his girlfriend.
Is it just me that thinks I need to draw a line? There is part of me that if I keep on trying, then I will reach there at the end of the day.
And there is part of me that tells me that if I do that, then he will run away.
Why is things so much more complicated as we grow older?
Why can't we just do it coz I want to?
I'm on the waiting side, waiting, and waiting every day.
Poet asked me one day "can't you just txt him and ask? doesn't he let you know if he can't be online tonight??" It's coz we never have a promise, it's not that we have a set time to catch up. This is the thing that sux most about internet. You get to know too much about what the other person is up to especially on social network like facebook. Back in the days, when we only used landline phones to catch up with people, all you had to do was to call them and then if they are home, you can talk, when they don't pick up, it means they're out. You don't have to feel like you're being ignored coz you know that "x min ago, he/she was online, but didn't bother chatting to you".
I am such a crying baby, while I had a really great time over the weekend, all I thought was how I can tell this news to you. And now that I can't, I feel like just picking up the phone to call you just to say good night, coz I know you were at least awake and on net 3min a go..... (and I love you internet for crashing at the right timing).
I'm so deprived of you.
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