I didn't realise til now that having a bad company is worse than having no company.
All I want is my own time. I don't want anyone to try and analyze me or understand me. I know what I need to do, but I need to be alone.
I turned my skype on to talk to my mum today and chickened out when I saw my colleagues online. I feel as though the silent existence of them is putting the guilt attack on me.
I still don't know how to tell my parents. I know they will be fine with it, and it's only me that has a problem, but I don't like to let them down or be worried over me. I want to stay as their proud daughter.
I thought I was slowly getting back onto my feet, but I can feel myself shaking by just looking at colleague's names, I don't know how I'll face them when I see them again.
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