Future

I hate every time you have a change in life, people want to know precisely what your next move is.

The truth is,  I don't know.

And neither do I know what I want.

This is one of the few times in  my life that I don't know what I want.

I was planning to travel, but the fact that I have absolutely no plans, also means that I will have seriously no money when I come back. Living with family really doesn't help either, they forgive me too much for being myself. It's so easy to be lazy, I can spend everyday doing absolutely everything if it wasn't for my family, making dinner and cleaning the house and all.

My parents still makes me feel like a baby, and I don't mind acting like one every once in a while. But it's a bit sad getting older, when you're little you don't think about money, they just somehow fell from the sky. But even living with family, I feel bad if I'm using up electricity, gas, food budget and what not. Even living at home I have to get the reality check that nothing in life can go back the way it used to be.

It's a small change, and times flies, I know.

I know I have to make the next move, and all I can think of is go back to nz and be with my friends. I really can't think of anything else that I want to do.