The Day Which "I Wish" Has Turned Into "I Will"

I always had a "I wish" list,

Just like anyone would.

But then I thought to myself.

"Why does it still need to be a WISH?"

I may not be the richest person in the world, but there is nothing stopping me from turning a "wish" into  "yes I will".

I was looking at buying some furnitures, and somehow, it didn't even occur to me to buy one second hand.

Maybe it's something I have forgotten about a bit from being in Singapore and Japan. Two countries where you hardly ever see a word second hand, other than some high end antiques ofcourse.

But as I flicked my favourite magazine, NZ House & Garden - the country living edition, I thought about the lovely fabrics I bought very recently, and how I could arrange my room closer to something I always wished I could have.

Sure, I'll need to buy some sand paper and do all the rustic appearance myself. But seriously, why not?

And I just got excited from there. Ok, so there are few furnitures I could buy for very cheap.... And I can def spend some money on changing the handles to something I like.

And also use some of the fabric I bout to make some mattresses and containers for me to use on top....

I may not be a millionaire, but I have a fortunate gift of imagination which my parents has passed on to me.

4 month in this new city, and I'm starting to like my life a little more.

Closure

I never though I would have a closure for this guy.

He was like nobody I knew. I never had to fake myself in front of you.

We started off ugly, and you also manage to beat up every attempt on trust I had for you.

The dinner last night was probably the most civilized you I have ever seen since the time before we got together.

And I can see what others meant by when you're in a relationship, you do love the person, and only the person.

But you came too late.

You asked me


"You never trusted me did you?"


The answer is


"no, I trusted you, but you broke my trust every single time".


All I wanted was 1 word out of you. Just to say that you're not in it just for the benefits.

It was so easy, yet it was 1 thing you just refused to do.

I never asked you to settle down,

I never asked you to be in a "relationship"

but instead, you told me


"we can change from friends to friends with benefits".


I may act like a bro, but I am still a girl.

I still see the attraction I saw on him, and I do enjoy his company, but it's not the same.

All the other guys I meet, it only puts 1 man on my mind now. And everyone else just seems so washed away. And you're not the exception.

Crazy cat, I can almost say I loved you. But you missed the biggest chance.

I won't say you don't have any chancee, but what you lost, you better try twice as hard to get it back if you really want it.

A candle lit dinner and your compliments are not enough anymore.