It is a completely different relationship to anything I have ever had in my life. And I still don't know if it was a good idea or not.
Some days, I feel like we can just marry )have kids, and it will be fine.
I may lack the warm and fuzzy feeling in my heart. That feeling that makes me want to cry. That feeling that makes me feel like we are one person. But we are compatible.
Some days. I feel like I'm lieing to myself. I feel like I'm trying to convince myself that what's shouldn't be ok is ok.
There are days I still think about the doctor, and even if I think of happy memories, it makes me want to cry.
It's not that the Sargent doesn't treat me right. It's not the fact that we don't get along. But I can't help get over that feeling, that feeling like someone held onto my heart, and one kiss made me want to cry.
I'm far off to say I love Sargent. I adore him to bits as a friend, and have the biggest respect for him. But I can't help that feeling that we will be well off and looked after by someone else.
Why can't life just be satisfied by simple life.
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