"you don't know what you got til it's gone"

It's well said, but I never though I'd be the one who would feel like that although I'm the one who got dumped.

Now that you're far, I really notice now that you did care for me, and loved me, in a special way that you do.

But I never realised it til now, because it was the way you always treated me right from the beginning.

Because you always treated me in that way, I thought you're like that to all your friends.

But now I can see that I was wrong.

You did try your best out of the crap situations.

You were there for me when I was in need of help.

You were always so supportive of me.

What more did I want?


But I did want more. I wanted to be with someone that loves me all the time, not only at time when he's free. Someone to walk beside me. Someone to share my life with.

And he did do the right thing, if he's not ready or feel right to do so, it was the best to leave.

But it still leaves me with me an hollow heat, that only can be filled with him.

I miss the traces of you that doesn't exist anymore.


I was so blind on how much you cared for me, that I no longer saw the good sides of you.


I wonder sometimes, that I should just let everything go. No contact, no nothing, just so it'll be easier....

If he doesn't exist, then I don't know. And I won't get hurt.

Can I remove you from facebook? I don't want to know your life anymore. Because I know that one day, sooner than I would ever want to, there will be that special girl, in your special space, where I wanted to be.

It's a sad reality that facebook is counted as an official mode of communication. But it is, its the easiest announcement to the public, including those that you don't care.

I feel like I should deactivate the account, so I'm no longer bothered. And all those people I do care about, they are already connect to me one way or another.

Maybe it is an option when I move. new life, new location, new start.

I need to forget about you. I love you too much.