I'm okay

Ever since break up with Dr.D, I've been okay.

I slept, ate, socialised, danced.

I didn't even have anything to even bitch about him, coz nothing was wrong.

Yes,  I do wish he didn't have a commitment phobia, but the fact is, he treated me so fairly. Even more so than anyone I've ever dated in my life.

All my friends said

I hate to say, but you knew this was gonna happen right?

Like if nobody thought his importance to me had any meaning to it.

He told me he loves me.

And although that word has so little meaning after we have ended, it means so much to know that he did. That the time we spent together meant something to him.

I broke down last night.  only friend that understood that I'm losing someone that I love, and loves me back. We were happy with everything about each other,  but it wasn't meant to last forever. 

A treasure of my life

There are many times in my life I'm so thankful and grateful to my friends.

People can be an introvert at times, when we feel like nobody loves us, or we feel like anything in this life is no more than noise and destruction.

But true good friends are one thing that can steps right inside my introverted boarder line.

Back in the days, I would have gone for a rebound out of loneliness, just for the sake of filling this emptiness. But I don't feel like I need to anymore.

They don't need to tell me that they love me, because I already know they do. I don't need an re-assurance to know where I stand.

When my American boy left me, everyone kept away from me, didn't ramage through my front door demanding to know what was happening. But they were just there.

10 years and more, I've known some of these amazing human beings, and I can't think of a life without any one of them.

Boys and relationship come and go, and I learnt to deal with my emotions, to keep a float and be a boat, sailing through my life.

But my dear friends, I love you all so much tonight.